Quest for a Cure

As of early February, after successfully completing the Tour of Sufferlandria, 2017, I felt compelled to train and ride a Sufferlandrian Knighthood DO (not an attempt). This involves riding 10 back-to-back video workouts (with no more than 10 minutes break in between each. Essentially, this boils down to another Total 200 – or its virtual equivalent, a year after that last little fun fest.

I originally planned the DO date for July 22, but the way training is going (especially the first two double trials @ 95%) encouraged me to bump up the date by six weeks, to June 10. The KoS DO involves a fundraiser, and I have chosen the American Cancer Society, setting up a contribution website. I plan to contribute $100 a month (plus overhead) until the KoS DO, as well as invite people to join me every Plateletpheresis donation (April 6, May 4, and June 1) and major cycling event leading up the the DO:

  • Icicle Century – Elkton, MD, Saturday, March 25, 2017
  • Ocean to Bay Double Metric Century – Bethany Beach, DE, Saturday, April 29, 2017
  • Shorebird Metric Century – Salisbury, MD, Saturday, May 6, 2017 (also an ACS fundraising event)
  • Skyline Drive Century – Front Royal, VA, Friday, May 12, 2017

For training, I’m also completing the 10-Week Sufferlandrian Intermediate Road Training Plan. I’m excited about this season’s focus (a season I’m dedicated to climbing, which will culminate in the Civil War Century and Savage Century. Who knows what success I’ll have with fundraising, but I know I will personally contribute $500 to the cause, as well as three units of Platelets, and over 2500 miles of blood, sweat, and tears.

Psalm of Psalms

One of a series chronicling a Psalm Pilgrimage.

Went to bed Monday evening as a winter storm brewed up the east coast – while another storm brewed in my spirit. I had been looking at word clouds on Pinterest – particularly ones from books of the Bible, like the one here for Psalms.

When Tim and I got together during Advent, he mentioned the notion of “Motives” or themes (phrases) in the Psalter, which got me to thinking about a project to scout them up. Instead of words, what of the phrases that appear repeatedly in the Psalms? What are they, and does the collection of them lend any insight into our understanding and appreciation of this collection of ancient prayers and songs? Before going to bed, I did a bit of searching on the internet and was dumfounded to find absolutely nothing.

Tuesdays are reserved for exegesis and study, and the rain and wind closed the church office, so I got up early and worked over twelve hours on this little project, which picked up considerable speed when I realized that my study software, BibleWorks, includes a feature that tracks down word clusters. After a bit of trial and error, I came up with the following rules for what constituted a repeating Psalm phrase:

  1. I conducted the search in Hebrew
  2. I looked for clusters of three or more words, with no more than a single word interrupting the cluster
  3. To be classified as repetitive, the phrase has to be used in four or more Psalms (repeated use in a Psalm did not count).
  4. The final order of the phrases would be descending order of Psalm repetition, followed by the order of the Psalter.

Here, then, is the Psalm of Psalms:

You are LORD of heaven’s angels,[i]
You, O LORD,[ii]
      Confound all who make trouble.[iii]
Steady love enduring forever.[iv]
The name of the LORD:[v]
      “God Above All,”[vi]
      From this time on and forever.[vii]

Maker of heaven and earth,[viii]
      I know you, LORD.[ix]
Be not far from me;[x]
      Hide not from me.[xi]
Over all the earth:[xii]
      Praise the LORD,[xiii]
      The LORD, O my soul![xiv]

[i]יהוה אלהי/אלהים צבאוֹת Adonai Elohai*/Elohim Tsabaoth – nine repeats in seven Psalms:

  1. Psa 46:8 The LORD of hosts is with us; The God* of Jacob is our stronghold;
  2. Psa 46:12 The LORD of hosts is with us; The God* of Jacob is our stronghold;
  3. Psa 48:9 As we have heard, so have we seen In the city of the LORD of hosts, in the city of our God; God will establish her forever;
  4. Psa 59:6 You, O LORD God of hosts, the God* of Israel, Awake to punish all the nations; Do not be gracious to any who are treacherous in iniquity;
  5. Psa 69:7 May those who wait for You not be ashamed through me, O Lord GOD of hosts; May those who seek You not be dishonored through me, O God* of Israel;
  6. Psa 80:5 O LORD God of hosts, How long will You be angry with the prayer of Your people?;
  7. Psa 80:20 O LORD God of hosts, restore us; Cause Your face to shine upon us, and we will be saved;
  8. Psa 84:9 O LORD God of hosts, hear my prayer; Give ear, O God* of Jacob! Selah;
  9. Psa 89:9 O LORD God* of hosts, who is like You, O mighty LORD? Your faithfulness also surrounds You.

[ii] כּי אתּה יהוה Qui atah Adonai – six repeats in six Psalms

  1. Psa 4:9 In peace I will both lie down and sleep, For You alone, O LORD, make me to dwell in safety.
  2. Psa 38:16 For I hope in You, O LORD; You will answer, O Lord my God.
  3. Psa 83:19 That they may know that You alone, whose name is the LORD, Are the Most High over all the earth.
  4. Psa 86:17 Show me a sign for good, That those who hate me may see it and be ashamed, Because You, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.
  5. Psa 91:9 For you have made the LORD, my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place.
  6. Psa 97:9 For You are the LORD Most High over all the earth; You are exalted far above all gods.

[iii] כּל פּעלי און Kal pa-ahleh aven – seven repeats in six Psalms

  1. Psa 5:6 The boastful shall not stand before Your eyes; You hate all who do iniquity.
  2. Psa 6:9 Depart from me, all you who do iniquity, For the LORD has heard the voice of my weeping.
  3. Psa 14:4 Do all the workers of wickedness not know, Who eat up my people as they eat bread, And do not call upon the Lord?
  4. Psa 92:8 That when the wicked sprouted up like grass And all who did iniquity flourished, It was only that they might be destroyed forevermore.
  5. Psa 92:10 For, behold, Your enemies, O LORD, For, behold, Your enemies will perish; All who do iniquity will be scattered.
  6. Psa 94:4 They pour forth words, they speak arrogantly; All who do wickedness vaunt themselves.
  7. Psa 101:8 Every morning I will destroy all the wicked of the land, So as to cut off from the city of the LORD all those who do iniquity.

[iv] כּי לעוֹלם חסדּו Qui le-ohlam hesdo – 34 repeats in six Psalms

  1. Psa 100:5 For the LORD is good; His lovingkindness is everlasting And His faithfulness to all generations.
  2. Psa 106:1 Praise the LORD! Oh give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  3. Psa 107:1 Oh give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  4. Psa 117:2 For His lovingkindness is great toward us, And the truth of the LORD is everlasting. Praise the LORD!
  5. Psa 118:1 Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  6. Psa 118:2 Oh let Israel say, “His lovingkindness is everlasting.”
  7. Psa 118:3 Oh let the house of Aaron say, “His lovingkindness is everlasting.”
  8. Psa 118:4 Oh let those who fear the LORD say, “His lovingkindness is everlasting.”
  9. Psa 118:29 Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  10. Psa 136:1 Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good; For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  11. Psa 136:2 Give thanks to the God of gods, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  12. Psa 136:4 To Him who alone does great wonders, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  13. Psa 136:5 To Him who made the heavens with skill, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  14. Psa 136:6 To Him who spread out the earth above the waters, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  15. Psa 136:7 To Him who made the great lights, For His lovingkindness is everlasting:
  16. Psa 136:8 The sun to rule by day, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  17. Psa 136:9 The moon and stars to rule by night, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  18. Psa 136:10 To Him who smote the Egyptians in their firstborn, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  19. Psa 136:11 And brought Israel out from their midst, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  20. Psa 136:12 With a strong hand and an outstretched arm, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  21. Psa 136:13 To Him who divided the Red Sea asunder, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  22. Psa 136:14 And made Israel pass through the midst of it, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  23. Psa 136:15 But He overthrew Pharaoh and his army in the Red Sea, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  24. Psa 136:16 To Him who led His people through the wilderness, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  25. Psa 136:17 To Him who smote great kings, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  26. Psa 136:18 And slew mighty kings, For His lovingkindness is everlasting:
  27. Psa 136:19 Sihon, king of the Amorites, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  28. Psa 136:20 And Og, king of Bashan, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  29. Psa 136:21 And gave their land as a heritage, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  30. Psa 136:22 Even a heritage to Israel His servant, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  31. Psa 136:23 Who remembered us in our low estate, For His lovingkindness is everlasting,
  32. Psa 136:24 And has rescued us from our adversaries, For His lovingkindness is everlasting;
  33. Psa 136:25 Who gives food to all flesh, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.
  34. Psa 136:26 Give thanks to the God of heaven, For His lovingkindness is everlasting.

[v] את שׁם יהוה Et-shem Adonai – six repeats in six Psalms

  1. Psa 102:16 So the nations will fear the name of the LORD And all the kings of the earth Your glory.
  2. Psa 103:1 A Psalm of David. Bless the LORD, O my soul, And all that is within me, bless His holy name.
  3. Psa 113:1 Praise the LORD! Praise, O servants of the LORD, Praise the name of the LORD.
  4. Psa 135:1 Praise the LORD! Praise the name of the LORD; Praise Him, O servants of the LORD,
  5. Psa 148:5 Let them praise the name of the LORD, For He commanded and they were created.
  6. Psa 148:13 Let them praise the name of the LORD, For His name alone is exalted; His glory is above earth and heaven.

[vi] על כּל אלהים El kal Elohim – six repeats in five Psalms

  1. Psa 57:6 Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Your glory be above all the earth.
  2. Psa 57:12 Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Your glory be above all the earth.
  3. Psa 95:3 For the LORD is a great God And a great King above all gods,
  4. Psa 96:4 For great is the LORD and greatly to be praised; He is to be feared above all gods.
  5. Psa 97:9 For You are the LORD Most High over all the earth; You are exalted far above all gods.
  6. Psa 108:6 Be exalted, O God, above the heavens, And Your glory above all the earth.

[vii] מעתּה ועד עוֹלם Meh-ah-tah Ahd Olam – five repeats in five Psalms

  1. Psa 113:2 Blessed be the name of the LORD From this time forth and forever.
  2. Psa 115:18 But as for us, we will bless the LORD From this time forth and forever. Praise the LORD!
  3. Psa 121:8 The LORD will guard your going out and your coming in From this time forth and forever.
  4. Psa 125:2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem, So the LORD surrounds His people From this time forth and forever.
  5. Psa 131:3 O Israel, hope in the LORD From this time forth and forever.

[viii] עשׂה שׁמים וארץ Osey shamayim vahretz – five repeats in five Psalms

  1. Psa 115:15 May you be blessed of the LORD, Maker of heaven and earth.
  2. Psa 121:2 My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.
  3. Psa 124:8 Our help is in the name of the LORD, Who made heaven and earth.
  4. Psa 134:3 May the LORD bless you from Zion, He who made heaven and earth.
  5. Psa 146:6 Who made heaven and earth, The sea and all that is in them; Who keeps faith forever

[ix] ידעתּי כּי יהוה  Yahdahti qui Adonai – four repeats in four Psalms

  1. Psa 20:7 Now I know that the LORD saves His anointed; He will answer him from His holy heaven With the saving strength of His right hand.
  2. Psa 119:75 I know, O LORD, that Your judgments are righteous, And that in faithfulness You have afflicted me.
  3. Psa 135:5 For I know that the LORD is great And that our Lord is above all gods.
  4. Psa 140:13 I know that the LORD will maintain the cause of the afflicted And justice for the poor.

[x] אל תּרחק ממּנּי El tirhaq mimehni – four repeats in four Psalms

  1. Psa 22:12 Be not far from me, for trouble is near; For there is none to help.
  2. Psa 35:22 Thou hast seen it, O LORD, do not keep silent; O Lord, do not be far from me.
  3. Psa 38:22 Do not forsake me, O LORD; O my God, do not be far from me!
  4. Psa 71:12 O God, do not be far from me; O my God, hasten to my help!

[xi] אל תּסתּר ממּנּי El ta-stehr mimehni – four repeats in four verses

  1. Psa 27:9 Do not hide Your face from me, Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not abandon me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation!
  2. Psa 102:3 Do not hide Your face from me in the day of my distress; Incline Your ear to me; In the day when I call answer me quickly.
  3. Psa 119:19 I am a stranger in the earth; Do not hide Your commandments from me.
  4. Psa 143:7 Answer me quickly, O LORD, my spirit fails; Do not hide Your face from me, Or I will become like those who go down to the pit.

[xii] על כּל הארץ El kal ha-ahretz – five repeats in four Psalms

  1. Psa 47:3 For the LORD Most High is to be feared, A great King over all the earth.
  2. Psa 57:6 Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Thy glory be above all the earth.
  3. Psa 57:12 Be exalted above the heavens, O God; Let Thy glory be above all the earth.
  4. Psa 83:19 That they may know that Thou alone, whose name is the LORD, Art the Most High over all the earth.
  5. Psa 97:9 For Thou art the LORD Most High over all the earth; Thou art exalted far above all gods.

[xiii] הללוּ את יהוה Hallelu aht Adonai – five repeats in four Psalms

  1. Psa 113:1 Praise the LORD! Praise, O servants of the LORD, Praise the name of the LORD.
  2. Psa 117:1 Praise the LORD, all nations; Laud Him, all peoples!
  3. Psa 135:1 Praise the LORD! Praise the name of the LORD; Praise Him, O servants of the LORD,
  4. Psa 148:1 Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD from the heavens; Praise Him in the heights!
  5. Psa 148:7 Praise the LORD from the earth, Sea monsters and all deeps;

[xiv] נפשׁי את יהוה Neph-shi et Adonai – six repeats in three Psalms

  1. Psa 103:2 Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget none of His benefits;
  2. Psa 103:22 Bless the LORD, all you works of His, In all places of His dominion; Bless the LORD, O my soul!
  3. Psa 104:1 Bless the LORD, O my soul! O LORD my God, You are very great; You are clothed with splendor and majesty,
  4. Psa 104:35 Let sinners be consumed from the earth And let the wicked be no more. Bless the LORD, O my soul. Praise the LORD!
  5. Psa 146:1 Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD, O my soul!

Abundant Life Two-Step

I’m reading Brian McLaren’s new book, “The Great Spiritual Migration: How the World’s Largest Religion is Seeking a Better Way to Be Christian.” (I like to think we’re on a pilgrimage, rather than a migration, but that may be semantics – or the fact that I am a company man.) I wanted to copy a couple of quotes here.

At the end of a chapter titled, “You Are Social Poets,” (quoting Pope Francis), McLaren writes,

…we need a common spirituality to infuse both our priestly/institutional- and our prophetic/movement- oriented wings. This spirituality will often be derived from the mystical/poetic/contemplative streams within our traditions. Without that shared spirituality, without that soul work that teaches us to open our deepest selves to God and ground our souls in love, no movement will succeed and no institutin will stand. (181)

Earlier in the chapter, McLaren argues that the prophets and contemplative streams are paths to ecumenical understanding and “growing mutual regard” (177). He also argues that our faith foundation gives us courage to face the reality of our situation, regardless of how dire, and to hold fast to hope. I have called this courageous holding force a flywheel in our individual and common life. Like two foci of an ellipse, contemplation and activism mutually inform and support act other in our life together.

I believe this is where my Psalm absorption stems from: a desire to stand on a firm foundation in these shifting sands. I have wondered of late that the Psalms might become a hiding place, a refuge from the storm – or a place to avoid reality. That may be a danger, but is not necessarily inherent in the practice. The way McLaren puts it, instead of throwing out religion, we opt for organizing religion in favor of organized religion.

There is great wisdom in this flywheel, this deep spiritual well of tradition. In the final chapter, “The Broken-Open Heart,” McLaren quotes Parker Palmer, from a Mar/Apr 2009 Weavings article. Palmer compares a heart broken into shards of pain, piercing others as well as the broken hearted one, to a heart broken open and expanded to make room for others in the tension of life, represented powerfully in the outward-stretching arms of the cross. Our religion, our tradition can show us all a path to this kind of pain-transcending heart expansion – called love.

2015 By the Numbers

2015 Heat MapThis year I was able to ride a personal best 4271 miles, including 1032 miles on the trainer and 565 commuter miles. That brings the total for my Altamira 2.7 (Phoenix) to 3854 miles (since August 30, 2014) and 1583 trainer miles (of 3245 miles total) on the Altamira 2.5 (Crimson Ride) since my August 11, 2014 crash. I’ve almost ridden as many trainer miles on the 2.5 as I had before the crash.

Of the 8824 miles I ridden since the “Drew Renaissance,” July 15, 2013, 77% have been road miles and 23% on the trainer. I enjoyed two organized event rides this year, the Icicle Metric Century in Newark, DE on March 28 and the Amish Century in Dover, DE on September 12 (my longest ride, 103 miles). The hurricane winds prevented me from riding the Seagull Century in Salisbury. Next year!

On November 21, 2015, I began commuting at Whatcoat. I had logged 463 miles commuting to and from Asbury UMC in the first half of the year, but this was a new kind of “purer” commuting on the hybrid, in my work clothes. I logged 76 miles commuting in December, or 14% of my total miles for the month (532). The road/trainer split was 54% (288)/32% (168), but December was a trainer heavy month. I’m finishing Week 5 of the SF 10-week Novice Training plan, much as I began 2014. Only this time I can eat, as I  am no longer losing weight while training.

My cost per mile remains high. This year, I added a Shimano 105 compact chainset/chain and BB, Revolution REV27 wheels, and purchased the rest of the SF videos and WKO4 for Mac upgrade – in addition to lights and commuter gear. I will no doubt have to replace some items due to normal wear and tear, but I’m hopeful that I can get the cost per mile well south of a dollar. This is an expensive sport/hobby. But a rewarding one.

Lame KICKR

ThIMG_1594e KICKR locked up on Monday, Feb. 16, after seven workouts (approximately five hours) from the time I purchased it on Feb. 3. Tech support at Wahoo told me the next morning (Tuesday) that it was a faulty speed sensor in the Top Cap, and that they would ship me a replacement Top Cap. When I received it Friday, Feb. 20, the KICKR worked like its old self for about 20 minutes, before failing again.

What I mean by “locks up” is that after 3-5 seconds of spinning, the resistance increases to the point of stopping the KICKR. There is no other choice but to stop. Then you can spin again or another 3-5 seconds before the KICKR locks up again. Performing a spin down calibration is possible, but the offset number is always 0, and the KICKR always locks up in any other mode.

Wahoo is closed for the weekend.

IMG_1601-768x1024I notice that it’s impossible to find a KICKR for sale these days. They’re all back ordered (at Performance, the anticipated ship date is March 19, 2015, a month from now). Which makes me wonder about these repeated fails (I bought one that was still in stock at my LBS). I’ll call tech support again, and maybe we’ll try another Top Cap. But I’m not holding out a lot of hope until I replace the KICKR entirely, which looks like an impossibility until early March.

Til then, I’ve set up the Comp Mag+ again. Oh well. When this gets sorted out, I’ll have the best trainer on the market. Between now and then, I’ve got a very expensive, very heavy piece of basement junk.

UPDATE (Feb. 23, 2015): Wahoo will replace the KICKR, which they now say must also have a defective strain gauge. I shipped the lame one back on their dime and they shipped a new one to me to arrive via UPS Thursday, February 26.

UPDATE (Feb. 26, 2015): The new KICKR arrived Thursday just before 6 PM and works like a charm. I took it for a spin (SF Rubber Glove, a 20 min FTP test) Thursday evening and logged a revised FTP: 270.

Winter Cycling on the Wahoo KICKR

IMG_1574-1024x768I started training on the Wahoo Kickr  yesterday, February 3, 2015, and immediately discovered that I’ve been training to inaccurate power predictions using the TrainerRoad calculations for the Performance Travel Trac Comp Mag+ trainer (TR’s estimates for the Comp Mag+ were well below what I was actually doing).

Setup was simple. After unboxing (it weighs 50 pounds!), I extended the stabilization legs, set the trainer height to 700c, plugged it in (leaving it plugged in is OK) and attached my hobbled Fuji Altamira 2.5C. The Kickr came with a Shimano 10 spd cassette (11-12-13-14-15-17-19-21-23-25). It’s extraordinarily stable, in and out of the saddle, even with a 120+ cadence.

I used the Wahoo Utility App to run my first spin-down calibration (spin up to 22+ mph and let it coast down to 10 mph) via BlueTooth. Everything else I’m doing with it uses its ANT+ capability, connecting with TrainerRoad running on our old Dell Laptop with a Suunto Movestick Mini USB ANT+ receiver. In ERG mode, TrainerRoad not only receives power and speed data from the Kickr (along with heart rate and cadence from my other ANT+ transmitters), the software controls the Kickr’s resistance as well. Changes ramp up (or down) gradually, so it’s almost imperceptible at first.

IMG_1577I’m used to using speed to nail power targets. Once the Kickr sets its own resistance, I can pedal within a +/- 10% cadence RPM window at a given power level. Which is a lot more, like, riding outside. Pairing the Kickr (in ANT+ mode) on TrainerRoad was nothing. My first test ride on the Kickr used the Sufferfest session “The Hunted.” I rode “The Elements of Style” (IF .71 and TSS 32) early this am. After another day of rest, it’ll be time for a 20 min FTP test Friday. The one I did Monday (on the Comp Mag+) was a bust. After warming up, my heart rate hovered at max for the first 10 minutes of the TT, before I stopped to get my heart rate down and limp the rest of the way home. I’m never, ever, gonna do that again. My last complete FTP test was 217 on Dec. 13, 2014.

I’m now suspecting that my fatigue and breakdown over the past three weeks has everything to do with the overtraining I was doing. The Kickr price tag was high (even though I got 10% off by purchasing it fromPerformance during their Tuesday lunch time special – plus 10% in BongoBucks). But it just might save my life.